LEAVING FOR THE BEST IN ME
It's been 8 whole years in this city now And somehow I still feel alone The longer that I'm staying here The less it feels like home
I've always fought to get my dues After all that I'm left with nothing Even as I thought the best of you I was always missing something
But now I've found a way to face the injustice of my days As I'm reborn into this world a little scared; not long afraid You had your chance to make the most of me But I'll never let you have me for free
My voice is lost from crying out So my pen shall do my speaking More than fed up without a doubt I'll always wonder what you were thinking
Though we'll never be as we were before I'll try to harbor no ill feelings I pray you don't do this any more To someone else just as deserving
Fear won't hold me in a cage the way that I've let you I'm surprised by all this suddeness we've recently gone through You had your chance to make the most of me But I'll never let you have me for free
I couldn't help but lose trust in you It just seemed to make the most sense And, no, there's nothing that you could do Empty words won't make a difference
When I finally find some peace And balance I'll make amends But until then I'll do what hurts the least Then maybe we could be friends
I'm at my wits end trying to make this all alright But the longer I've remained the more of myself I've had to fight You had your chance to make the most of me But I'll never let you have me for free
It's not "goodbye"; it's "I'll see you around" Though you've built me up to knock me down You had your chance to make the most of me But I'll never let you have me for free
Not again...not ever again...for free ---
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